when sisters visit

when sisters visit

My little sister just graduated high school, as I stated in my "Utah in May" post. So a few days after we got home, she flew in to stay with us for almost a whole week! It was so much fun. I hardly ever get one on one time with my younger sister because the rest of my family is usually there, so it was super fun to get to know her a little better and show her all my favorite places (and try to convince her to go to art school here). 

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mothering thoughts + lazy days

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I recently was asked how I don't go crazy with spending so much time with my daughter. That question took me by surprise, and I wasn't sure how to answer. 

Of course, it got me thinking. 

I don't get much alone time, other than nap time. I don't get much time to myself. I don't go out much by myself, or even really take much "me time". So how is it that I'm still sane? Am I even sane? Have I gone crazy and there's no turning back so it's just the new normal?

I don't consider myself a stay at home mom because I do work (only 3 hours a week..). But I pretty much am a stay at home mom. Which is great, because that's always what I wanted to be.

In 2nd grade when we were asked to write about what we wanted to be when we grew up, while all the other kids wrote about being astronauts and firefighters, I wrote about being a mom. 

Today in our culture kids are seen as a burden rather than a blessing (at least here in southern california), people put it off until the last second. Like, there are much more important things to do and kids ruin everything, so put off having children until you have 2 eggs left and you can't wait any longer. We, as a society, are so obsessed with money and career that family is becoming less and less of value. "Don't you have dreams and aspirations?" "You didn't buy a home before having kids?", is what I imagine they're thinking when they see me. What they actually say is "you're too young to be a mom." 

Oh, I am? Well somehow it still worked... the sperm found the egg despite my age and economic status. But thank you for your opinion that you stated as a fact.

I've often heard about or seen comments like "you're so strong and brave and independent for leaving your baby to go work". Not too long ago, you were looked down upon for leaving your child with a caregiver to work, but now it's the complete opposite where you're looked down upon if you don't  leave your child with a caregiver to go work. Neither are right, in my opinion.  I have a great respect for ambitious women because I wouldn't necessarily consider myself one. The world needs ambitious women. But the world also needs "just a mom"s. Isn't that an equally brave and strong thing? To sacrifice your dreams and ambitions for the wellbeing of your child. To spend your days pouring yourself out to rarely be filled back up. Isn't that equally empowering? 

I've always felt kind of ashamed of the fact that I just wanted to be a wife and a mom. I always felt so much pressure to be more than that, as if there's anything better and more fulfilling than motherhood. I always thought I wouldn't be satisfied unless I was doing big things for the Lord, and like I wasn't called to an ordinary life. Or If I didn't graduate college (which I didn't) and establish a career (which I didn't), but instead got married and had babies (which I did) that I would somehow be a failure. 

But, now, here I am in this ordinary life, and I'm realizing it's exactly where I'm supposed to be and that there was never anything wrong with desiring to be "just a mom". It's the most important job in the world. I, personally, can't see a greater definition of feminism than motherhood itself.  

No woman should be looked down upon whether they choose to be a "traditional" wife and mother, or whether they choose to chase their dreams via career. We're all strong and we're all brave. My daughter will grow up knowing that she can do anythign she wants, even if that means being "just a mom" like her mom. 

treat yo self | mother's day gift guide

treat yo self | mother's day gift guide

It's my second mother's day, and I'm so excited! Last year Jesse woke up early and made me a huge feast for breakfast (see the post here). The year before that we still celebrated because I was pregnant, and I bought myself this bag (because I needed an excuse). Ha! 

This year, I treated myself to some goodies (some of which are in this guide). Jesse got the day off work, too, so I'm excited to be able to spend the entire day together as a family. 

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parenthood diaries

parenthood diaries

Parenting and motherhood are the most beautiful God-given job on this earth, but it also really sucks. We're given these precious lives to nurture and take care of, but only for a short time, until they develop their own dreams and desires and opinions and leave us high and dry for the next best thing. 

It's the most fulfilling, yet heartbreaking job. Knowing that I cannot hold her safe in my arms forever. Knowing that I can't keep her to myself forever. Knowing that I will eventually have to let go. 

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easter weekend 2017

easter weekend 2017

So, this is basically just a photo dump because we packed so much into one weekend that I'm too overwhelmed to write it all. I will say, however, this is one of the best weekends we've had in a while. Jesse was off for 4 days in a row which never happens! So we took full advantage of it. 

Enjoy allll the pictures :)

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Fit Friday

Nap time, oh nap time. I love you. You allow me to do so many things like snack on those cookies I dont want to share, and binge watch that show on Netflix I don't want Ever to watch, and even maybe get a workout in. 

This is a simple 20ish minute workout that you can easily do at home with no equipment.

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Favorite Things | Baby Mantra

Favorite Things | Baby Mantra

When you become a parent, you begin to see the world in a different light. 

You see all its beauty in a new way, but you also notice more of the bad things like chemicals, toxins, carcinogens, etc. everywhere. That's why I appreciate companies like Baby Mantra, who go to extreme precautions to make sure their product is safe for little ones. 

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beach + donut friyay

beach + donut friyay

Jesse went into work at noon today. The days he works 12-8 are very bittersweet. It means we have time to do something in the morning, but it also means he doesn't get home until late, usually after Evvie is already in bed. Today, he's MOD (manager on duty) which means he'll be extra late because he has to be the last one to leave.  

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