I know every single mom in the universe says this, but how is she already 3 months old?!
I mean, 1 month... okay, I wasn't too upset. That's still brand new. 2 months, same thing. Not a huge deal. But 3 months! That seems like a whole new milestone. No longer a newborn. Sizing up in all her clothes. Learning new things every day.
I've found so much joy in watching her see the world with such awe and wonder. Oh, to have the innocent eyes of a child. Everything and everyone is beautiful. To them, there is no evil in the world, only places to explore, colors and patterns to see, delicious fingers to eat. Everything is new and exciting in their eyes. She is literally a sponge, soaking up every thing she lays her eyes on. I love the way her eyes scan her surroundings no matter where we are, never a blank stare. She's constantly observing. Constantly learning. I hope she never loses that.
Sometimes I get a little scared being a mom. While nursing tonight I began praying for her and the life ahead of her. And I realized, I'm so not fit to be her mom. I'm not qualified to be the steward over her life. I'm responsible for raising her up in the ways of the Lord, in truth and in grace and in love. I must lead by example, but how am I supposed to do that when the person I am is so much less that who I want her to be? It must be the Lord in me. In order for me to love her completely and purely, I must first be so filled with God's love that it can't help but overflow out of me into her.
Anyway, enough rambling (eye roll emoji), here's some things about our 3 month old Ever Joy:
Ever has started to open her hands more. She's started to intentionally reach for things and grab on with a death grip. She's discovering different ways to use her voice daily, and it's getting louder and louder. She's getting quite the set of rolls on her arms and legs. Her hair is getting lighter, and her eyes seem to be set in a nice brownish green color. We love every inch of her perfect little high maintenance self.
- HER FINGERS.
- Getting her diaper changed
- Kicking her legs like a madwoman
- Smiling. Smiling's her favorite.
- Being distracted by our tales of going to the zoo when we put her in the carseat
- When I sing the song "A Penny A Kiss"
- Baths. Until we wash her hair.
- Going outside
- being naked
- Trader Joes
- Phones and TVs
- Her carseat. Still. But it's getting a little better.
- Being held in a rocking position
- being hot
- going to sleep
- when daddy kisses her with his scruffy face
- her stroller
- getting her hair washed
- shopping for clothes with mama
- letting mama make dinner